giggle....a lot

I have 2 friend’s I am really not talking to right now (hello, I apologized twice to one. You don’t get a third or a grovel) and another is a major ass all the time lately even when I ask him not to be. A third friend is slowly showing true colors. I miss my real best friends: Rich, Elaine, Vanessa. I miss people who actually know me and don’t want to change me. I miss people who want to be friends everyday and not just to go out partying and drinking. I don’t want to wear high heels all the time. I like casual too. And I like who I am and where I am in my life. This shit is annoying the fuck out of me. I need different people in my life. I need my family. But I am not willing to leave California, so I guess I deserve what I am getting.